I can’t quite remember my first fictional crush but I do remember that I was more inclined to prefer the ‘bad boys’. For example, in The Lion King I wept my tiny little heart out when Scar died, whilst Gaston (obviously now I just see him as nothing but a massive dick) left such an impression on me I actually ended up playing him in a theatre production of Beauty and the Beast. I assume that my first fictional crush was a Disney Prince but my memories of it have been overshadowed by the ‘ew boys are gross’ phase.


However, I do remember in my tweens being introduced to Yu-Gi-Oh, I thoroughly enjoyed the anime and one character in particular caught my attention, so to speak. I remember thinking that Seto Kaiba was, you know… alright for a fictional character. I don’t know whether it was that arrogant asshat attitude, or the 6ft height or that chin you can  cut your finger with, but Seto Kaiba was my ‘if only he was real’ character.

Of course this love for the bad boys of anime crossed the DBZ territory with Vegeta (he was my first tattoo) and then again with Toshiro Hijikate and Sougo Okita in Gintama. But Kaiba will always be ‘the first’.


There was a Yu-Gi-Oh lull at one point and I drifted off. But then Yu-Gi-Oh Abridged came to my attention and my crush for this rich asshole was ignited once more. Littlekuriboh plays him incredibly well. By this time I had also found the world of… fan art. As you all know some fan art can be… suggestive… graphic… amazing… which made this fictional crush weird and confusing. Then I learned about the dangerous world of ships, specifically Yu-Gi-Oh ships, and of course Puppyshipping (Seto Kaiba and Joey). That spurred my love for yaoi and I ended up finding some amazing manga’s based on these two!

Even now when I see a new manga release with Seta Kaiba portrayed as a dominant character my inner fangirl squeals with joy. I guess it’s true when they say a girl always remembers her first crush!


Rhian Dixon
I'm a photographer and lifestyle blogger for my very own website http://rhidixonblog.com . A manga and anime enthusiast who trains Super Saiyan style, I'm also partial to buying Asian films and never watching them x

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